I gave up on photography

A while ago I gave up on photography.

It wasn’t really something I intended to do and at the time, if I’d realized that putting that camera into a bag and into the cupboard would mean it would spend a year there, untouched, perhaps I would have done something different.

A lot of things lead to the that moment. Most of it was personal issues. I’m an introvert, but despite that I’d tried to start and run a photography business that was dedicated to photographing people. I know right. In hindsight, it’s probably not the most clever thing I could have tried to do. It failed. It wasn’t because I couldn’t take the photos. I’d taken some great photos that I and the clients were happy with. I wasn’t really happy with doing it and because of that I struggled to find new clients and so on and so forth. I was upset, but I let it go for my own mental health.

I figured I go back to taking photos I wanted to take and forget about making a business of it. I struggled with this as well. Perhaps because of the business issues but I struggled with confidence and with finding locations. I couldn’t bring myself to work with models because I was scared of messing up and not being able to produce quality photos. I couldn’t justify spending money hiring models for the same reasons.

Days between taking photos turned into weeks and weeks to months and before I knew it, it had been nearly a year since I’d even picked up the camera.